I have a food problem. What a sticky (like sugar?!) addiction to have, since food is necessary for life! I can't just quit it cold turkey like an alcoholic or a drug addict.
My thoughts are consumed (see what I did there?) with ideas about my next meal (fix, really!) I count minutes until it is acceptable lunch-time range. I have difficulty concentrating on anything other than that piece of chocolate that hollers my name so loudly and yet... only I can hear it! I bring a slice of apple pie for a co-worker and then, I eat his AND mine. Sorry. *hangs head in shame*
I have learned that eating high quality foods that I make myself helps. I have also learned that avoiding trigger foods like they are the scourge of the earth helps build up a tolerance to their tiny, shouting voices. Sometimes when I'm in the throes of craving potato chips or ice cream, I stop and ask myself why. It's usually because I'm anxious about something. I try to focus on the cause of that anxiety and relieve it in a healthy way, with positive self-talk or meditation. Sometimes it works! Sometimes it doesn't. :( Sometimes I just don't care and I eat until I can't anymore.
We are set up at birth. Yes! It is an elaborate set up! I protest. I come out crying and BAM! you shove milk in my face. *sigh* Then I wonder why I'm obsessed with all things dairy. Cookie Monster rants and raves about his sugar addiction; isn't he so cute?! Well, yes, he's cute, but how is that OK? Every time I did something well, I was rewarded with lollipops, pizza, ice cream cones, oh the devilry of it all. I reach for food and it makes me feel oh so good.
I remember when I was a kid and I was having too much fun to break for dinner. How do I strike a balance? Where I nourish myself when necessary but I don't obsess about food most of my waking hours? It all begins with awareness. The rest is a journey. Who's with me on this path? Shall we skip?
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