I started reading Anatomy of a Food Addiction by Anne Katherine. After answering "yes" to 12 of the 16 questions, I realized that my behavior toward food is not normal. I have known that to eat one tiny candy bar is impossible. More must follow. Until I feel that I might explode. The taste of the chocolate on my tongue does not satisfy - I must always have more until I've reached the point of feeling ill.
Anne recommends quitting sugar and alcohol altogether. Like a drill sergeant kind of strict. None. Fresh fruit will be the only source of sugar. No dried fruit, no juice, no, no, no. I mulled this over as I savored the last piece of homemade apple pie I had crafted this weekend.
I don't know if this is in keeping with what my inner child wants. She loves candy. But she was sneaky! She ate sugar to excess and tried to hide how much she had consumed. As if an empty cookie sheet and candy jar did not give her machinations away! Haha.
I do know that the cleaner I eat, the easier it is to avoid my trigger foods. I'm not against animal products (I LOVE cheese even more than mice! That would be more than mice love cheese, not more than I love mice...) but the more vegan my diet, the easier it is as well.
I started writing right now because I'm craving sweets. I'm feeling anxious, like I need to move around and I also need a distraction from my work. I wonder if a quick walk would do the trick? My inner child just said she wants to skip. Ok, fine! I'm off!
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